Here I am, a middle-aged woman, living on a boat, currently in a very beautiful place in Greece. The weather is hot, not a cloud in a sky. I have very little to worry about. Lots of people have told me they wished they could change places with me, how lucky I am, etc etc. So why am I feeling a bit depressed, blue, homesick?
I just think I’m the sort of person who is never satisfied. As my daughter informed me on a text message earlier, I’m never happy. When I’m in the UK I want to be in Greece, when I’m in Greece I want to go back to the UK. I’m not liking anything about Greece right now. This morning I was OK, and at lunchtime we met some jolly English folk also on a boat, and had a nice chat with them, but then afterwards, for no reason at all, I was plunged into a depression, and I can’t shake it off.
We’ve been to this little place before – Mitikas on the Ionian mainland. It’s lovely, one of our favourite places, very Greek. But I don’t want to go for a walk, the beach is shingle and I can’t face a swim, there’s nothing I want to do. I had to go and buy water and milk from the mini-market, but that depressed me as they had virtually no stock on their shelves, nothing to tempt me with,no bread, the fruit and veg was awful.
Hopefully I’ll wake up tomorrow feeling better, but I just can’t get excited about anything at the moment, I am missing my grandchildren, English shops, chocolate, UK TV and radio, friends to talk to……. Will someone give me a stiff talking to, and tell me to get my act together and snap out of it?